thoughts on: completion.....

i haven't written in a while now
because i get lost in myself sometimes
and my creativity takes a catnap
and it's hard to believe
that i will ever find her again
and it scares me
i feel lost
without her
like my soul has been ripped out of my body
and i have to trust
that she will return
like a lover
gone out for a walk
and i am sitting and waiting
starting to worry, for it's been hours and hours
and still he hasn't come home to me....
but i must trust he is taking
all the time he needs
and so today
i felt her
renter my body
what joy!
in the past week
i let go of my new family, my new work, my new purpose, my new life project
i set them free, and i felt pain!
and i wanted to push the pain away
but instead, i sat with it
i felt it
it's rough corners, it's hard dirt floor, it's bright lights, and tight walls.....
an uncomfortable home, i wanted to flee it
but i sat, and i waited for the illusion to end
for all my walls are fake
all the hard cold floors my demons
i close my eyes
and i feel the expansiveness of my soul
i feel the completion of another portion of my life
and i let it go
i set it free
and i once again
set
myself
free