the adjustment
bureau - movie review
i was always told to
go for it
think big
dream big
live large
know what you want
fight for it
just do it
and somehow
unimaginably
it worked
for so much of my life
it worked
and then one day
something shifted
something shattered
and somehow
unimaginably
it no longer worked
i could no longer conjure
one single thing
that i thought was true
real
and years went by
of struggle, disease and striving
not believing it was over
so much time passed me by
before i could finally see
inexplicably
that the fight
the struggle
the pain
was never going to work
and i started to ponder
the possibility
of a master plan
beyond me
beyond my ego
beyond my desires
beyond my dreams
goals
ideas
logic
like that movie
the adjustment bureau
could it be true
and if it is
where exactly
did my effort fit into the plan
my self-will
my dreams
my truth
today
in my tiny little basement suite
i have no idea
all that makes sense
in this one small moment
is surrender
letting go
bursting wide open at the seams
of my such a limited heart
compared to the Divine
that is trying so desperately
to help me see
that the master plan
is a good one
it fits the life i came here to live
perfectly
surrender doesn`t look like
a blob on my couch
a puddle on my floor
a foetus curled up on my bed
it kinda feels like that
but it doesn`t look like that
it isn`t tears, sadness or addictions
it kinda feels like that
but it doesn`t look like that
the master plan
looks like a path
filled with twists and turns and choices
a light in the distance that i only need seek
a tunnel that sometimes looks black and sinister
but always, always
ends up in the rays of the sunshine
the master plan
is like a perfectly tuned orchestra
conducted by a maestro
that can somehow see
every single thing
happening at exactly the same time
i want to lie down
forever in sivasana
but i can`t, i can`t
the master plan is only a plan
the orchestra requires the musician
the architect requires the labour
the mother bee requires the worker bee
and the Divine requires our soul
God needs me
God needs you
He has a perfect plan
help me live it
help me breathe it
join me
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