Day 36: The Work

i took my herbs for the second night in a row last night
and i was awake all night very sick
all day today i was cleansing deeply
very nauseous, tired, cramping, bloated
by around 4pm i started coming out of it
and got outside for some sun and a little walk with the dogs

i only had two small juices today
the rest of the time i drank the broth with nori strips soaked in it
also with lots of garlic and spices, like turmeric, fennel, ginger and cloves
this broth is super potent
and I'm going to keep on drinking this for some time
I'm still planning on adding in cabbage and wild mushrooms like shitake
also some other sea vegetables like arame and kombu
starting on sunday when the 40 day cleanse is technically over

we have a plan for breaking the cleanse on sunday
all day saturday we are going to collect fallen wood and create a sacred space
we will start a fire at around 7pm
and we will tend the fire all night long until morning
throughout the saturday evening we will have council around the fire
and share our learnings with one another
sunday morning we will break the fast with berry banana kale smoothies
(except for me. i will probably have some orange juice and then the broth later)

i took the herbs again before bed
praying for sleep, even though knowing it was unlikely
i have nothing on the go whatsoever tomorrow
so i know it's the perfect opportunity to continue this deep cleansing work
it's hard to believe i haven't made more headway in nearly 40 days
and it is taking all of my effort to stay positive with this experience right now
i know this is the practice though
this is just as much "the work" as anything else for me